Some days just feel like they are far more difficult than you think they should be and this morning was one of those mornings where prayer was very difficult. I was not understanding at first why today just felt so hard. I’m mean, I’ve had a few days, so far, where prayer seemed like more work than usual but today was different. Today, I felt almost stuck. I felt as if I had been silenced.
About half way through the hour I came to some conclusions. First, this week, I’m focusing my prayer on the women who have abortions and who’ve had them in the past. But the main difference of course in Germantown is that you really only get one shot at seeing a woman change her mind. If someone is not able to reach her on a Sunday in Germantown, before she goes into the clinic, then the damage is done and there is no going back, there is no changing your mind, this woman now has a dead baby in her womb for three days until it is delivered on Wednesday. The second conclusion I came to this morning was that I was feeling completely hopeless. Why was I there today, there was nothing that I could do to change the situation this week. Today, I could really feel the atmosphere of death. My heart just ached for these women though. How many of them must have gone through this process and in doing so wished that they could change their minds? How many women have suffered through those three days after their baby has received the fatal injection of Digoxin hoping they weren’t carry a dead fetus in their womb? I would dare say that many found themselves in that place over the years.
But what about that hopelessness I sensed today? The Lord is gracious and He reminded me that He is victorious, that He is risen, and that He has conquered sin and death. Is He saddened by all of this? Yes, of course He is. But everyday, I receive email reports that provide updates around the world from the various 40 days for life campaigns that encourage me when I read about the number of lives that are saved. I’m encouraged every time I hear about even one woman who changes her mind, walks out of Carhart’s clinic, and instead walks across the parking lot to the office of Germantown Pregnancy Choices where she will find out about real help and real options that will save her life and the life of her baby. I’m sure those moments also make the Lord happy.
As we persevere in this fight for the lives of the unborn “let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (Galatians 6:9)